Afraid of failure


It happened again.

I started to give up before I'd even started.

I have struggled as long as I can remember with giving up.  I have a list of about 2 things that I've ever stuck with, finished and become good at.  I need to focus on that tiny list and making it larger.  But, my own issues pull me down every time.

I just get started with something.  Let's see, crocheting, accounting, computer programming, piano and on and on and then - bam!  I find someone better than me.  Someone who has either succeeded easily and quickly or who worked hard and is seeing great results - and I give up.  Why bother?  They already did it.

Gets me every time.

I end up in a sad, sad place of disappointment, failure and self pity.

It's totally lame.  Do you ever end up there?

There truly is only one place I can find any relief and promise of true transformation in this area.   My savior.  He is the only one who offers me unconditional acceptance and the energy and power to change this in me.

I have several new things on my plate at the moment.  Things I'm oh so ready to give up and drop.  It would be so much easier, I tell myself.  My life would be so much calmer and I could revert to my introverted, solitary, safe place.  And I'd have….  not much.

So - today I am choosing faith.  We can rely on the power of Christ to keep going.  To persevere. To not give up until we absolutely CANNOT go on.  To pray for doors to close in our face to keep us from going.  I will go.

I will continue.

I will work hard and find success in the process.  Join me?



Heather said...

I am struggling right now with giving up on something I've not even really started yet. I just have my foot in the door and I like the happy comments I'm hearing, but I don't know if I really want to walk through that door. If I do and really try for success it will mean sacrifice and lots of hard work. Am I willing to sacrifice to succeed? Is it the right time? All questions I've asked every time this venture comes around knocking. I've always taken the easy way out. Which do I fear more failure or success? I'm not sure I know.

Anonymous said...

Its funny you say this now. I too struggle with this and it is the reason I stay in a job I don't like, have written 2 stories but never finished, and continue to leave projects 90% done. Even now looking for jobs I can tell myself I will not get them or that I'll be stuck in the same kind of field. Bless you Lord for giving Angie this message and the solution that we put our faith in Christ... the only one that can complete our almost's